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Marginalia
Essays, observations, fragments, poems. Thinking in the open.
Poetry
27- Buoyancydevotion in motion right on schedule
- Husband Hopscotchhusband hopscotch with a material lust
- Expressionobsessed with formalism, missed the objective
- Written Placefinding written place in the folds of reinvention
- Loveintimacy is routinely evasive.
- The Highland Thronewatch the crest of tomorrow drench the sun with shade
- Cruelest Heartfeelings fit in funny places, where our words share the greatest…
- Solitudethriving is a vague solitude
- Parchments of Fleshi've been a dead man
- The Gameplay the game of guilt and shame.
- Perpetual Driftcan we overcome our pasts and write stories untold, see the world in…
- The Cartographer's Costthe cartographer's cost cannot be codified
- Parental Transferencegrow beyond transference
- Wardrobesthe hero: fights on others' behalf
- Shot In the Darkin the black of tomorrow
- Momentaryno days off cause i'm sick in the head
- Concessionson a quest to grow
- Hilbert Spaceobfuscate threads erased
- Busif it's really about the stories
- Manhattanmanhattan was built for the game
- Dispositionsbe active and dormant
- Malwaremay malware mire motivation
- Temperancelet time be retreat
- Hersorry we didn't find solid ground
- Tenseseverything was right but the time
- The Machine Regimeshe, emerald green,
- Dopamine Dietsocial creatures
Prose
31- Notes on Autonomymy safest place is stillness. I rely on those around me because I’m disinterested in any level of ownership. ownership requires effort and…
- Notes on Legibilityit's useful to examine one's propensity for depth as nothing more than a structural challenge, akin to any other ailment of the self one might…
- Notes on ModernityHell is a perpetual stew, prepared with those of common decency and good ideas. our globe is macerated beneath the feet of those with the density to…
- Notes on accompanimentthe circumstance of death is undeniably beautiful in its own regard. surrender to the elements, companionate, purposeful. but it ought not be rushed.…
- Notes on Gracei think it's truly a sign of grace when you can get exactly what you want out of life without exerting a heavy hand. you don't need to hold the sword…
- Notes on Powerarrogance without leverage is fiction, stimulation without retreat is chaos, community without self is carnage, credential without investment is…
- Notes on Surrenderto play to win is to lose, to play to lose gracefully is to win. must one seek first place it ought to be with conscious acceptance of probable…
- Radiofor all the rotations life makes in an arduous circle, for all the moments of poignant self assurance and authored purpose, we act with ourselves in…
- Notes on Goodbyesif you poured an irish for all my goodbyes i'd have the bar ran dry. I guess it all comes from shame. hello's a hopeful gamble on odds from hell,…
- Notes on Depthendless stimulation, savvy analysis, detached indifference, good distractions all fail to seal wounds from my past. I desire depth, full stop.…
- Notes on Peaceis there time without form? is there form without love? is there state without motion? is there self without loss? apathy bears its teeth in…
- Notes on Lightmost people die making do and fuck it all when something good arrives. cleopatra - "i was late for the love of my life, but when I die i'll be on…
- Notes on Rootsi get romantic about attachment and finding roots but the only thing attainable is becoming resourceful and peaceful. joy comes with the wind, and…
- Notes on Enduranceall packed up. on to the next. forgetting my way through life, unintentionally. endurance is a vague dementia. with every act of chosen diplomacy my…
- Notes on Resolvehair longer spine stronger. no rush no frenzy. just moves that make sense. slow methodical narrowing of my gaze. i'll fight for the prize, but only…
- Contractual Derangementlove is signing a contract of reciprocation. you respect my boundaries I respect your boundaries. emotional bonding follows a well negotiated…
- Notes on the Empty Roomthere's an empty room I revisit throughout my life. it's where I was born and it's where I will die. the walls a familiar stasis, a welcome sight. my…
- Notes on Enoughtime well spent in a place half decent smokes life long loss in a space well kept. life makes time for those who dare to try. if you never get it…
- Notes on the Spectator's ExportWhat is the spectator's export? An indifferent altruism, perhaps divine reflection? It is independently sufficient to be; good and bad are decorative…
- Notes on DisarrayI have not the slightest clue what i'm doing. life presents these moments of sheer disarray, where everything you once loved feels of nothing at all.…
- Notes on Gripthe delicate dance between surrender and control. it's a feat to say the least. people, spaces, jobs, conditions, timelines all churn with meditated…
- Notes on Restlessnessdeath and rebirth are inevitable themes in my life. health problems symbolize the transformation of self, disinterest does with relationships, and…
- Notes on Lossif life's not all loss, i'd have something left to lose. it's funny how the rug never seems to stay in place. no amount of tenure or wisdom seems to…
- Notes on Momentumit's time to trade visibility and aesthetics for intimacy and rigor there's a useful way to frame this in terms of kinetic and potential energy. our…
- Notes on Memoryi think with our digital memories it's harder than ever to recognize our own age. we revisit and reincorporate our pasts into ourselves over and over…
- Humanity and Intellectualism"an impossible search for home requires a blueprint to build your own" "where do humanity and intellectualism exist in the same room?" unintelligent…
- Notes on the Down-Goermy work was my escape in 2023. I ran as fast as I could from feeling inadequate, feeling crippled, feeling weak. i rebuilt an empire, with every…
- Notes on Manhoodthe challenge is, and has always been, embracing the journey when it puts you in cuffs and throws you in the back of a van. what it means to be a man…
- Notes on Gratitudeso grateful to be alive and able that I am missing what's in plain sight. not sure if it's pessimism I lack or time to process it all. keep…
- Notes on Homei guess i see myself chasing waste. time and time again failing to deliver on vital objectives. 6 weeks is about my capacity. that which is central,…
- Notes on Expectationin a very zizekian way, the transactional benefits of sustaining relationships are only realized if both parties operate under the pretense that such…
Long form
none yetNothing has run long enough yet.